*heavy sigh*
Jul. 16th, 2008 02:29 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
zanthessI thought this whole quitting Nintendo thing would be good for me. After my husband convinced me I should quit, I've been second-guessing myself the whole time. Panic attacks are still coming, and it's getting harder to be out in public without feeling like I'm going to freak out.
I'm really not sure what direction I should take now. Since graduating highschool, life has just been one day of survival after the next. I never really had much of a choice as to what I want to do with my life. Now, I have the luxury of sitting back and not having to get a job right away, and I'm just frozen in fear.
No question about it, I will be going back to finish my associates, but what do I do now for a job? The sting of not having a degree is hitting full force with the crappy career options, and I don't want to take a job out of desperation for the sake of making money like I did with contracting for Nintendo. If I have any say I WILL NOT do a temp job again.
Just.... blargh! I want to scream and punch my bed pillow to death, but then where would that get me in the long run?
Good news is our apartment is coming together nicely. I guess that's something I can be proud of right now.
I'm really not sure what direction I should take now. Since graduating highschool, life has just been one day of survival after the next. I never really had much of a choice as to what I want to do with my life. Now, I have the luxury of sitting back and not having to get a job right away, and I'm just frozen in fear.
No question about it, I will be going back to finish my associates, but what do I do now for a job? The sting of not having a degree is hitting full force with the crappy career options, and I don't want to take a job out of desperation for the sake of making money like I did with contracting for Nintendo. If I have any say I WILL NOT do a temp job again.
Just.... blargh! I want to scream and punch my bed pillow to death, but then where would that get me in the long run?
Good news is our apartment is coming together nicely. I guess that's something I can be proud of right now.