zanthess

So many things going on in my head right now. Feelings are going like a roller-coaster speeding at twice the speed. I really wonder how much longer I can hold on to this. I feel like I am hurling forward in time and stagnating at the same moment. Learning all over again to enjoy the moments that I have now, and that the possibilities of joy in the future cannot be expected, but joyfully anticipated.

I just have to keep telling myself that God wouldn't give me these trials if he knew that I would fail. He believes in me, and so I must believe in myself. That is all I can do right now, so I shouldn't worry about things out of my control.

Here and Now - Great Big Fish

The sun must set to rise
The light will leave your eyes again
Then breaking like morning's dawn
Does summer feel the winter come

And the hardest part of life
Is to live while you're alive my friend
So sing an unwritten song
Or repent for the deeds you left undone

This is Here
This is Now
It's the moment that we live for
And we just can't live without
It's all clear to me now
We've already started dying
And our time is running out
Oh, Right Now

Time is ours to steal
She's a secret to reveal my friend
And when your children have all grown
You'll wait by the window
And wish them all back home

Walk a little further off the beaten path
And we'll drive on even if we get there last
Our backs against the wall
We will lunge and bite
And we'll rage, rage, rage
against the dying of the light