Heartaches and flutters and migraines, oh my!

So many things going on in my head right now. Feelings are going like a roller-coaster speeding at twice the speed. I really wonder how much longer I can hold on to this. I feel like I am hurling forward in time and stagnating at the same moment. Learning all over again to enjoy the moments that I have now, and that the possibilities of joy in the future cannot be expected, but joyfully anticipated.

I just have to keep telling myself that God wouldn't give me these trials if he knew that I would fail. He believes in me, and so I must believe in myself. That is all I can do right now, so I shouldn't worry about things out of my control.


( Mood music ahoy! )